The Taints of Liberty.

Do you ever just feel really dead inside?

How do you say “we need to talk” without the negative connotations? Without giving him the fear that we are going to break up?
I really just need to talk with him. I need someone to talk to anyways. Someone I really trust. I need face-to-face therapy. A lot of things for stirred up this week and I have a lot of heavy emotional baggage I need to unload, or at least talk about.
Ugh.

I’m feeling really lost right now.
Too many things happen all at once, and even though the storm is gone, I’m drowning in the water.
So many things about me have changed, and drastically, over this last week. Last night I was 100% sure that I was going to be with Trevor for the rest of my life—right now I feel like we should break up. And for his best interest, not mine. There are so many factors that play into this, it’s not that I suddenly don’t love him or anything, because I still do love him, it’s just that I’m so lost, and I want what’s best for him. I want him healthy, safe, loved, and able to be successful and tackle his goals. I fear I am getting in the way of that, and again, many other factors are playing into this. It’s not just me.
I just don’t know what to do.

troioi-kevinnnn:

I am not anyone’s second choice, I am not anyone’s backup. I will not accept anybody’s favor if nothing was given back. I will not keep anybody in my life if you are pulling me down from what I strive for. I am not anyone’s little dog nor anyone’s little test dummy for feelings. Nice guys finish last, let me be the first.